We lost our baby girl at 34 weeks in October. We are considering trying again but I’m not really sure when is a good time or if I even want to. My emotions are still all over the place with trying to cope and I’m missing her more everyday but sometimes I think having another baby will bring some happiness into our lives.

My husband really wants more kids and it’s something he has always talked about (he has a 12 year old daughter that he doesn’t get to see often). Still, he is very understanding that what we just went through was very traumatic and understands if trying again is too much for me.

I fear that I will receive negative comments for even considering trying again so soon. Especially since his sister is also expecting a baby in the coming year.

To top it all off, I had an emotional breakdown on new years due to a mixture of relief for finally making it through all the holidays and sadness that it’s just a start of a new year that I will have to go through without Camilla.