I (F24) and my partner (M31) have been together 2.5yrs now and I have a child currently (F2) as well as he (M8) but I want one with him. I know how he feels about having a child in general but I really would love to have a baby with my best friend. My soulmate, the love of my life.

I am not one to try and convince or force someone into something they're not comfortable doing. We have talked about marriage in the far future and the possibility of adoption but it isn't the same.

I'm more than happy with the idea of adopting but I would also love to have a baby naturally by the man I love, I have tried to communicate this with him maybe 2 or 3x but still he is very hard on having a baby naturally because of how he views himself.

Idk how to rid of this baby fever. It's definitely got stronger since we talked about it recently and talked about moving in & buying a car together. It kinda makes me really sad, especially when he talks about his ex he had a child with. It's something I fear I'll never get over.

Anyone have advice? I would gladly take it, because I'm honestly not sure. I have asked my therapist about it and I also brought up the idea of having a private conversation with his mom and grandma about it but haven't so far.

Idk guys, it breaks my heart. The dream of marrying my best friend and giving him a baby from the moment I was a child has been shattered by my lover and I feel like I'm settling, it isn't fair. I feel I've given up way too much while he enjoys every aspect my side of the relationship has to offer. Idk..