I'm wondering if anyone else may share there experience here, the trials you might be going through and your really trying. There is no judgement here, there is no shame here. We understand so much, and innerstand the wisdom of ourselves. You understand that everything revolves around you. You are the main player. You are in control, of the entire world, once you control your mind. Free from attachments, constantly in thought of your consciousness.? However, you are still having a rough time. It's life, life just gets harder the more you evolve higher. It's like this ladder I have been climbing and I can't believe how high I am, but your arms get tired, your legs are sore, and for a moment, it seems your not really moving anymore.. Sometimes, do you feel like your going backwards? You fall back into your old routines, and somehow you get yourself stuck in the mud and really are in some need of help now. And you don't know how it all happened. You feel everything crashing.. Your issues and situations in life just gets worse. It feels like, this journey and seeking enlightenment means nothing when you fall this hard. I know that isn't true, I'm just saying sometimes things get so hard, you feel that way. I'm having a really hard time, I don't talk to anyone, so I just hold it all in. Hope yall understand. Please I hope I'm not the only one.