For almost 3 years now I've been dealing with Sexual Dysfunction and Emotional Numbness that all began after an intense and chronic period of stress, depression, and anxiety. I lost my sex drive. I have erectile dysfunction. And I also have reduced sensitivity to my penis. My emotions are also gone. I feel flat most of the time.

Other symptoms I have in addition to this are brain fog, head pressure, a reduced appetite, and muscle tension.

I hate to admit that all of these symptoms began because I was unhappy with the size of my penis. I always felt like my penis was small and because of it I would never have a satisfying sex or dating life. I would watch pornography and compare myself to the guys in porn and it would make me feel inadequate. I honestly felt like I was doomed to live a life of misery over a body part that I was born with and have no control over. It sent me into a deep depressive, anxious, and stressful episode. I kept worrying and worrying about it to the point where it seems like my brain and body couldn't take it anymore and I just shut down. That's when these symptoms of emotional numbness and sexual dysfunction, etc. all began.

However, I have since come to the realization that my penis size is normal. It's 6.5 inches bone-pressed and 6.0 inches non-bone-pressed. The girth is 5.2 at its thickest and 5.0 at its thinnest. I learned how to measure properly and I realized I am normal size.

However, I am still dealing with the emotional and sexual trauma from that episode 3 years ago. I really do believe my body dysmorphia caused inflammation to my brain chemistry and body. I've been trying to recover.

I wish I would've realized from the start that my penis is normal size because if I did, I honestly feel like I wouldn't be in this position right now.

Sorry about the rant, but I really wanted to get this off my chest.