It's been a long time since I have posted but my health isn't the best and I feel like between my chronic illness and autistic burnout, I can never catch up.

Just one shift of work can make me feel sick for the next week (literal cold symptoms). Pair that with the feeling of burnout; the exhaustion, the frustration of restlessness, not being able to really relax. Not to mention my whole life is just lopsided right now. No bills are paid, no food in my fridge, nothing.

And I just feel like a walking dumpsterfire. My muscles hurt and I have no energy to speak lmfao I don't say I am mute but my partner will get upset because I just shut down with exhaustion and body aches and cannot speak. It's like hitting a wall, I have experienced this feeling my whole life.

But as I get older it feels just..worst and worst. With no relief in sight. I just needed to vent for a minute 😪

Thanks for reading.