I hate that i get sensorily anxious to where i shut down and cant communicate and this happens a lot with my bf and i dont know what to do.

We have a lot of fun togetger, but very often - if im worried about myself or how I'm presenting to him i.e masking, laughing, making jokes etc my personality shifts and then i get very weird or awkward.

He usually doesn't realise its happening or happened and it just looks like - a day where neither of us said very much and it ended up being boring.

I hate stiffening myself up like that when i get overwhelmed or just anxious. Im trying to be my best, entertaining self around him but my anxiety always skyrockets and then im awkward with saying things (words feel like massive rocks and he has to keep going "huh? Or im hiding under the blanket the whole time he's there or my "jokes" are off and poorly times making it awkward.)

I really don't know what to do as this freeze has been getting worse in the last three weeks.