I am a 22F, I got diagnosed in 2021 with autism. I live with my family, but I have never told them I got diagnosed. In the past whenever I brought up issues with depression, ADHD, etc. they always told me I didn’t have anything wrong with me, or that I didn’t have any disabilities, etc. I don’t think I’ll be able to tell my family. I have autism for a while. I don’t feel safe telling them because they might judge me.

But the main idea of this is I feel like my family and friends always play devils Advocate with me or judge me. I don’t know if this is because I’m autistic or if it’s because I’m around toxic people. for example whenever I tell my friends, for example whenever I tell my friends or family I don’t like something or I have an opinion about something I don’t like something or I have an opinion about something, they always grill me about it and always shame me for it.

For example, if I tell them, I have a sensory issue with something that always question me and say “well I don’t have an issue with this.” I’m not sure if this is an autism thing or they’re just being mean to me,

I also feel like my friends that know I have autism aren’t very supportive and I feel like once again they kind of judge me for things. Even if I say, I don’t like a texture of food or, I don’t like a certain type of music or something. They always make me feel really bad for stating my opinion. This is for my family and my friends. I hope I’m making sense and I hope if you’re reading this, you understand what I mean.

I don’t know why, but I always feel like an outsider and I always feel like I don’t belong. I feel like my mindset is so different from everyone around me.