So a couple weeks ago, I came to the realization with the help of therapy that I was emotionally neglected as a child and teenager. So I learned about that, and read a book about emotionally immature parents. Since reading that book I have started to become more aware of all the crappy ways my parents treat me.

Twice this week, one of which happened today, my mother had volunteered my own time to help other people without even talking to me about it first. I thought about all the times that she has done that over the years. I told her that it is not ok for her to do that, and I strongly dislike it.

She tried to get around it by saying that she did ask me about it, but she didn't, and just told me that I would be helping someone. I held my ground and this led to her confirming that she had lied about asking me first. She also mentioned about how I need to do things for other people. (I have never done "enough" to help my parents, and have been told that often, for as long as I can remember.

I have been really wanting to get out of my parents home, but I am unable to financially support myself on my own. So I am kinda trapped here and it sucks.

If you read this all, thank you. I just needed somewhere to let this out.