I hate periods so much. I‘m a trans guy so you can probably guess that it‘s bad for me. I have pain, my brain doesn‘t work the way it usually does, I don‘t sleep well, I feel depressed. it‘s three days of „everything sucks and I just want to fall asleep and wake up when it‘s over“ and then it‘s a couple more days of „this sucks but at least now it‘s not bad enough to ruin the day anymore“. those first three days usually are the worst of the whole month and I‘m only on day one.

I don‘t have energy for anything. I‘m hungry af but have no energy to cook. I really want Käsekrainer (sausages filled with cheese - I dare say it‘s an Austrian specialty) roasted in butter with mashed potatoes. just the way my mom makes them.

but I couldn‘t possibly bring myself to go out to the store and decide for a brand that probably doesn‘t even taste good anyways and spend all the time making the mashed potatoes and besides it‘s not going to taste like my mom‘s.

and my partner, who usually supplies me with comfort food when I feel like shit is sick and doesn‘t have the energy to do any of this either.

now I have to decide what take away to order but again it‘s probably not going to taste good and I can‘t find anything that speaks to me.

god I hate this so much