So I got dumped. I lost my job and as a response I had a meltdown/shutdown which often leads me to disconnecting myself from everyone. I turned off all my phone notifications for a day and didn't message my partner. Usually I'm good about telling people I need space but I fucked up. The next day I apologized for not telling them what I was going through, that I was just going through one of my moments and didn't think before I acted. I promised I would be better about communication moving forward and they decided it's best we break up. I told them I'd put some separation between us for a little while due to this and unfriended them on Discord, which seemingly was not the right thing to do as it made them more upset. We were only together for two months but I just feel so depressed, lost and hating myself for my autism.

I know I'm the asshole for ghosting and I fully admit my fault but I just needed somewhere to vent. I don't understand why I can't just be normal.