I am feeling lonely these days. I am lucky in some sense, I have some good friends and two best friends. But everyone deals with its own life and even if we want to, it is getting harder to meet regularly. The empty space worsens this feeling. I have been really nervous because of numerous deadlines and above all dealing with late people. So I guess I would just like to have someone who cares about me and hugs me telling me that everything will be fine when I am overwhelmed by edginess. And whom I can return the favour. But I don't think that people are able get over their first impression of my seemingly serious, jaded face, lack of facial expression and weird behaviours. Whereas when they are "forced" to know me by cirmcunstances, they like my curiosity, my vibe and my open-mindedness. They are getting closer to me and confide in me a lot faster than with others. I guess I can't change this without not being me anymore, it's coming with the whole. Sorry for this, I already think it's pretty lame.