Do I live for myself instead of others or do I listen to my mom and grandparents because I live with them and I’m only 19? No one said anything last time.

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Everybody wants me to go to college. I keep struggling in all of my classes and I don’t know what I want to do I already wasted a semester studying psychology then I changed to computer engineering. I’m still not sure if I want to do this but I know college just isn’t it for me at least not this one even with all of the accommodations it just isn’t working. I suggested a trade school. She found a college specifically for people with disabilities CIP (college internship program) Long Beach. Problem is id have to go live on my own the semester has already started it’s to far from home and until I can go a little while without hurting myself my mom doesn’t want me to go there but I just can’t stand it here I can’t handle school either I’m just tired I don’t know what to do.