I don’t let myself get attached to anyone! I don’t reach out to often. Especially over the weekend. I always keep myself distanced I struggle talking with new people I struggle talking with people who I know well at least well enough for them to not be strangers. It’s a defense mechanism. It’s helped a lot honestly but my responses are short my conversations are dull. They were always short and dull this time I don’t even get attached or care much I don’t ask to many questions about people. I don’t like to talk a lot.

I don’t want to be hurt when people leave me or when I push them away. Ultimately I’m not making to many connections because I don’t socialize. I’ve been hurt in the past and I’m not trying to keep getting hurt the only way I keep other people from hurting me emotionally is to not get emotionally invested. Unless there’s another way but I don’t know what it is.