Preface: I'm in the beginning stages of realizing I may be on the spectrum. Have been reading and watching videos and it feels like the reason why i am the way i am is being revealed. Not completely convinced since I'm just skeptical but something I've been wondering is if anyone else has felt something similar.

I really dislike change and am very very routine based. For example if I'm all set to go on my daily walk and my best friend texts me saying he's outside and wants to talk I feel upset and might even tell him to leave or something.... Anyways

I started personal training at the gym a few months back and have been really enjoying it and improving. Due to my anxiety it took some time to connect with my trainer but despite some awkwardness i started to feel comfortable. Time came to renew my training sessions. Said what the hell I'm committed and dropped over a thousand bucks. Next day I get a message from the trainer saying she had to leave the gym abruptly and could not continue but recommended another trainer. Since then I have felt really unmotivated to go back and have had one session with the new trainer and while it was good....idk how to explain it the session was amazing but i don't feel good. I regret spending the money which is not refundable. I haven't been keeping up with the workouts, I really don't want to continue and start all over with this person and just. I can't explain it other than I don't feel..... Correct.

I'm guess I'm just looking for thoughts and opinions. Apologies if this isn't the right sub. Like I said not even sure if I am ASD but.... Anyways

Edit: i do want to add that i have taken those online assessments I'm aware they are not diagnostic. One said moderate signs, another said suspected. I've had social anxiety all my life and struggle with interactions in general.