Last night, I was at a party. A girl came up to me and said “Can I ask you something?” I answered yes, cause I love to answer questions lol. “I hope this isn’t rude, but do you happen to be on the spectrum? And/or have ADHD?” I lit up, jumped and confirmed. “How did you know?? I just recently found out!” She answered “Cause I am too!” que fangirling over her great neurodar and laughing about how some neurotypicals would find it insulting being called autistic. “We’re gonna have like 16 great conversations at once!”

… It’s like I’m walking on a fluffy, soft cloud of sweet confidence and pride in being myself, working away my mask, to the point that I’m actually seen. I can’t really grasp how much it means to me. We also talked about how the pandemic and TikTok has helped so many of us females realise, after years and years of kinda dark diagnoses. Dark in the sense that you have hopes for “getting better”, and even be put on medication that does nothing other than ruin your body.

Sure, therapy has helped me pluck away some shame and process my childhood, but the social anxiety is embedded in me. Learning that I don’t have to change, the world does, is a relief like no other. Of course not having a total jackass as your inner voice helped, but it only recently changed, when I discovered autism, especially in combination with ADHD which makes the rigidness harder to spot (i.e. I always have certain food texture cravings, but I love to explore new foods and where I can find an even better texture than I imagined).

This girl is dating a NT guy - the best friend of my best friends boyfriend (lol I also lost track) - so I really hope he can handle the love bombing. If not, that’s also okay, finding a mate is a journey.

This encounter gives me the feeling of finding this sub x10, so I just wanna say I love y’all. Weirdos unite!