I'm pretty sure as a kid I was fearful avoidant or disorganized. But as an adult, I think I've taken disorganized and organized it.

Some (and a growing part) of my life has been on the edges of secure.

If there was someone I wanted to like me, I could be pre-occupied anxious. Shortly after, if I realized I wasn't getting a return on my investment, I would slide over to Dismissive avoidant.

Co-workers that I got along with, I felt secure. Would cover for them and not fear that they wouldn't return the favour. Could tease and be teased without distress.

But several times a co-worker was promoted to being my boss. Relationship quickly changed to fearful avoidant.

With my wife, I'll move between secure and dismissive.

The price of this is that I've never had a deep relationship. Never fallen in love.