This isn't a standard r4r post. I guess I'm not exactly looking for sex but wanted somewhere to share an epiphany I had about what sex means to me discreetly.
The other day while driving home after seeing Black Adam, I began to feel horny.
Maybe it was euphoria from being pleasantly surprised that it wasn't an absolute shit show. Maybe The rock's bulging trapezoids made me feel some kind of way as a straight man.
But here's the thing.. Even though I was horny I didn't feel like having sex. In fact, i havent tried to have sex in months. It was a strange moment of being hyper aware of a bodily desire but having no desire to act on it. I've coined it pre nut clarity.
Anyways, I found myself wondering why I wanted sex. And that eventually lead me to question what sex means to me.
I thought about growing up. I was fortunate to have both parents but I never hung out with them. You know. Like we never spent quality time together. There was never an effort to get to know me. To simply be together and have fun. When we did "hang out" it was to accomplish something or because something was needed of me. I think subconsciously this made me feel unwanted.
So now when I think about sex. It's not specifically about feeling good. But it's about feeling wanted. Desired. Because for a woman to let you enter her body, she's got to really want you in some way.
I think that's also where my desire for explicit consent comes from as well. It's reassurance that it's okay for me to feel like I'm wanted.
None of that to say anything is wrong. But it was a comforting realization and I'm curious if anyone has had these moments.
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