Reposting because haven't been able to find anyone - Looking for today - Soon

Hello Everyone

I have posted here before – Mainly looking for some one that could help me in my desire to have my first gay experience and for the most part i have been open with a lot of doubt and hesitation – Maybe its my fault but i haven’t found anyone that i felt comfortable connecting with. I realize a huge factor of it is my own self doubt so today i throw away that doubt and today i pop my gay cherry.

My name is Michael – A computer science college student living in Atlanta – For the most part i would say i am straight in the sense that i like women – I love the female body and i feel interested in females but i have had this fantasy that started a year ago ever since i started trans porn and blowjob focus porn – This desire to become submissive and serve a guy completely – It started with a curiosity about trans porn then i notice i started to focus on cocks a lot more. I started to get interested in the idea of giving a blowjob which only expanded the more porn i watch – Then the jealousy started.

The desire changed slightly to the point i started to get jealous of the girls in porn – The cock they suck, getting controlled, becoming a toy – At that point i knew it was something i had to do but this doubt always held me back. I am have always been a coward in my life – Not so much now a days than in the past but the sense of doubt has always lingered inside me – Causing me to reject friendships and opportunities. This is a huge factor why i have always been scared about this but lately i realize i cannot keep this doubt from letting me explore, from letting me live. So i decide that today i wipe away that doubt and commit to this – Commit to giving my first blowjob – commit to my first gay experience – Doubt still holds me but i should not let it hold me anymore because this is something i really want – I realize that after taking some time the other day to fully think.

I ask myself – Am i ready? My cock gets hard every time i think about becoming one of those porn actresses in a rough porn video – Being force to give a blowjob, cum dripping down their eyes, being rough up, but also making the man moan – Giving pleasure.

So, i say that today i become bisexual – So, who can help me with my fantasy and i promise i will use all my desire and willingness to server you till you are dry. What i am looking for – Though i am pretty open minded so even if you don’t match the things below then no worries – Still reach out to me – Reddit chat.

• Some one who is older - Think daddy type
• Big cock
• Naturally dominant
• Can guide me for my first time
• Interested in turning this into something long term
• Easy going and chill

Disclaimer i would like to talk first to get a feel until i feel comfortable. Ideally looking for today or tomorrow. I am near the apex museum of Atlanta and Grady - I can't host nor am i mobile - Send me a reddit chat if you are interested.