Knowing what we want is a lonely place to be.

I want to be owned. Collared. Branded. Marked. Forever. Irrevocably. In mind, body, and soul. I want to wait on my knees for you. Present myself. I want to be a vessel, a canvas, for your cruelty. I want to suffer because you want me to suffer. I want to be loved either way, but I want to be loved because of my devotion, because of what I have to offer as a submissive. I want you to put my needs first. Your needs second. Your wants third. My wants fourth. I want to be in a team where you are the captain. The only captain. I want to be cherished, proudly owned, proudly presented to the public, to family, and friends. I want trust. I want to fall. I want to be so lost in you, I'm what you tell me I am. I want respect, but equally disrespected. I want to feel like nothing matters except my devotion. Except your control. Your word. Your command. I want you to build a world for us two, with me in the middle. Your slave. Your property. Shattered and scattered like stars in the sky, Rearranged to be your perfect constellation.

I want a 24/7 High Protocol Master/slave dynamic. I want you to be equal parts cruel and loving. I want you to be hard to get, but easy to be around. I need you to be a grounding force in my life, while also encouraging growth. You're very, very difficult to find. Many will claim to be you, some might succeed at playing the part. But I'm not accepting anything less, anymore.

The thing is, these desires are the 10th step on a 15 step ladder. There's a whole foundation we have to lay before we get to that point. So many things have to line up. Finding you is half luck, half intention. You have to be ready for me, and I have to be ready for you (and I don't know if I am). Our locations have to match, our maturity, our experiences. Our availability, our openness, our capabilities. Our relationship status, our way of life, our values, our goals, our aspirations, they all have to line up and make sense. That's so many factors. A needle in a haystack of probability.

I am entering my villain era. I will no longer accept that which does not serve my higher purpose. I will not accept a deviation from my path. I will not accept things that do not enlarge me. I am done not speaking up for myself and my needs.

I continue to work on myself, my growth, my submissive abilities and I am not afraid to work for as long as I need to. To become worthy of being owned property. But my one choice will not be taken lightly. The choice of who controls me will not be a choice I make overnight. It is not a choice I will make even a month into meeting you. Possibly a year. Connections and sparks are fun, but I need to know my keeper. I need to see the ways in which you tick, because that is how I will tick. I want to see the world you imagine for us, and decide if that will become my new home.

I am seeking an IRL high protocol dynamic, but that is not how it will start, so I am seeking someone who desires this in the future but is also cognizant that we must first be friends. That we must first be lovers, sometimes enemies, we must be partners, equals, explorers. We must communicate, openly, vividly, share dreams, insecurities, desires.

I would love that future dynamic to include mental and physical pain, degradation, humiliation, polyamory, cuckqueaning, denial, chastity, pet play, rituals, collaring ceremony, public play, community, friends, intimacy and privacy, cruelty, creativity, travel, partnership, devotion, bruises, markings, discreet collars, obvious signs of ownership, leashes, permanent markings, love, profound happiness, nature, protection, communication.

I am 29, thick Latina. I work out, yoga, hike. I journal, I think, I process. I work on myself, my less desirable habits. I am self aware, I am intuitive, I am ever evolving. I have asked for a lot, but it will not be a lot to the right person.

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