Towards the end of last year, I had a fling with an older woman. One of the many things she told me during our time together is that I'm young, hot, intelligent, to keep my options open, and that I have no reason to pine over shitty guys when good ones that actually care about me are out there.

It still stings when I think about her too deeply, but I'm grateful for the time we spent together. It allowed me to gain a different perspective on how I live life and how I interact with others.

('Tina, if you're out there... Zee misses you.)

In case you're someone who has tried to make conversation with me in the past, I would like to apologize. I know I haven't been a perfect user of this subreddit. I have a history of ghosting people (though I think it's understandable in some cases; being a (REAL) girl on the internet requires some conflict avoidance and thick skin). I am still learning how to clearly communicate opinions that are hard-to-say, to ask for exactly what I want, and hell, to even THINK about what I want.

I wish I didn't spend so many of my years in my head, anxious about my future. It turns out I had nothing to worry about - I'm in a great place now and it will get better from here! Not everything about now is perfect: I have some physical afflictions that prevent me from conducting most types of physical activity, I gained 40 pounds over the last year (from medication, love how they didn't tell me it was a side effect. 🙃), I don't believe I'm as attractive as I used to be because of it. I still have my curves, but my figure has an added softness. I still have a pretty smile, big tits and ass, and a love of blowjobs.

For clarity, I am polyamorous and I have a primary partner. It's unlikely that you two will interact, unless that would be something you're interested in. My reason for posting at this time is simple: I want someone who I can fulfill some of my fantasies with. Experienced Dominants/Tops are preferred, as I enjoy myself the most when kink play and sexual activity are intertwined. I love spanking, restraints, collar and lead/leash, brattery, anal play, dollification, pet play, hypnosis play, and toys. I am also open to building these interests with someone with more vanilla experiences! I especially enjoy men with big dicks that are nice to look at and even nicer to touch.

So, if all that hasn’t deterred you, send me a chat message so we can get to know each other! This librarian cutie is looking forward to making the right connection.