since i go to a Unitarian Universalist "church" i had to form a credo or statement of believe and i wanted to see how well it fit with atheists since i thought i was more geared towards atheism at the time.

I am hoping you can comment on it and give thoughts or advice

Here it is

Life for me is split between many levels. I believe that multi-tasking and focusing on everything at once is very important to do. At the bottom, there are my normal thoughts and reactions to people and things I have seen. Everything makes sense and I can enjoy my life and hobbies like music. I also try to learn as much as a can about science and math and history and other aspects of life that can be found in a book. At the second level though, I look at life as if I am watching myself in the third person. I see all of my actions and thoughts and then try to find ways around other problems at the first level. My motivation for having this second level is because of all the problems in my life and in everyone else’s life. In this level, I try to control all aspects of my life and find a reason or structure to everything around me. I look at how emotions can cause changes in the mind and try to learn to change my emotions at will, but still know my true emotions in my thoughts. Other feelings like pain or tickling I try to develop reason behind and be able to ignore pain or unjust laughter when necessary. I look at life as though it was one possibility and that I should try to make the best life I can regardless of certainty that I won’t just pop up in another world instantly and have to redefine everything. As I do this, I try to organize the way things behave around me and find the differences and similarities. In doing this, I hope I can live life the best possible way by sort of breaking all of the rules that appear to apply to everyone else. However, when I get too tired in this level, trying to think life through and learn, I remember the first level and create a happiness that may or may not even matter. I can then use music or other knowledge seeking to relax. Though hopefully, I can get over being too tired to think and be able to think for days without being overwhelmed. As for religion and a god or gods existing, I believe my mind is my own and that my unwanted actions are due to laziness in my mind, but of course, I will probably never know and will continue to learn regardless. Focusing on whether a god does or does not exist seems too complicated to ever be known. It’s like saying everything that can’t be explained will fall under this category called god and different people have different explanations of it. I am just going to try to learn all of the unexplained parts of life instead of assuming it all falls under one category. As for hobbies, music is important not because of the message it gives, but because of the emotions it gives. It gives me the instant ability to change emotions and put me in a state of mind so that I can think more efficiently. And as part of my knowledge seeking, I will try erase ignorance and a general lack of knowledge. So far, it seems that most of the world’s problems stem from disagreements and that for all problems there is a right solution or at least a clear decision between whether certain principles are more important than others are. So as I live I will create the best environment possible for the world and see if the challenge of making the entire world make sense is possible. I will try to solve all of the problems that are part of my life and the world. And while I do this I will also try to relax and enjoy life through my hobbies while learning about “Real” subjects in life. And on the next level, I will always be analyzing how people act and how the universe acts so that I can satisfy my appetite for knowledge. Though I probably never will, my goal is not to understand the second level. I only use that level because it is interesting, never ending, and helps me overcome problems in the first level. My goal is only to master the first basic level of life and be happy and interested exploring the second level of life.