Hi, so im just an 18 year old dude with not much experience on these topics, but, as of recently, I've been watching Matt Dillahunty and his arguments against theism, its really stirred up my mind. And I've sort of been orbiting atheism, but I'm so afraid to let go of my religious beliefs, as well as my irrational fear of a hell.

Here are my current beliefs:

1. I believe in the christian faith, mainly just the holy trinity, but purely on faith (belief in something where there is a lack of evidence). I know there is no evidence for any of the divinity or resurrection and my only reason for believing it is because it provides me with psychological comfort, especially an afterlife; I know it may all be untrue. I'm quite skeptical of it all, all supernatural stuff, claims of ghosts, demons, etc. I think most of the bible is B.S, since there a lot of immoral things and contradictions and unscientific stuff. (Currebntly agnostic theist like)

2. I strongly support, uphold, and defend science, particularly evolution and the age of the earth, for I used to be a young earth creationist. I understand that science is one of our best epistemological systems to understand our reality and nothing really compares to it. Critical inquiry is another large part of my thinking.

3. When I vote or make large decisions impacting myself or society, I vote based off of the facts and logic, not my religion or superstition. I'm not sure if an afterlife awaits me or if any gods exist, but what I know is that we exist now and I treat it as the only life I may get, and I cherish it. (I live a kind of secular-humanist life)

Upon watching many debates and the minor study of epistemology, I know I'm being an irrational hypocrite when I'm so scientific and critical in practically every other area of my life except for when it comes to this theistic stuff.

I am aware faith is a bad reason to believe something, simply due to its flawed nature in being unable to draw out the ontological truth. Sticking with Christianity provides me comfort though. All this introspection and reflection has really shaken up my mind as I feel my beliefs are on unstable ground. WHAT SHOULD I DO? I feel really nervous, scared, and confused. Help.