So i stepped away from christianity about 2 years ago but i still fear demons. Anything occult related makes my skin crawl. Being possessed or haunted is so scary to me and i cant watch horror movies with that type of content either due to this.

Seeing demonic symbols like goatia summoning circles or runes is so triggering to me. I have intrusive thoughts due to mental health issues, which i am being treated for, so when i see this stuff my mind jumps to stuff like "demons, i summon you, possess me and haunt me and ruin my life", just really uncomfortable stuff thought up by my brain to scare me. Like im so scared im actually wrong and that demons are real and me seeing a summoning circle or some other occult symbol in a picture and thinking like this will summon one for real one day.

Anyone else have this? How did you get over it? I cant exactly discuss my fears with others i know cause im in a relgious part of the country so many others arround me probablly do think really think demons are real and will only reinforce my fears.

(Please dont put me down in the comments. Yes, I know this fear is irrational and yes I am in therapy but this is really hard for me to discuss and get past. I just want to know how others started thinking in order to not worry about this anymore)