Ill be honest i relapsed hard the other day. Ive been having a bad few weeks and my anxiety has spiked badly. I stepped away from religion about 1.5 years ago to not be ad stressed and cause i couldnt believe it any more.

Yesterday i saw a clip on my recomenended of that christian "horror" movie nefarious and i clicked it and it triggered me badly. The movie is about a possesed death row inmate who talks to a psychiatrist about morality, heaven, hell ect. I guess he got possesed when he was young and he was forced to murder 6 people cause of this. He lets the guy get control back from time to time only after he makes his life even worse for him and at the end of the movie he is executed and the demon made it clear he would be going to hell. This is so fucked and, no matter how irrational, triggered me so bad. This movie is literally my worst fear and the movie kinda spins it like the inmate deserved it for some reason i felt so bad for him and im so scared of being possesed rn.

I get bad intrsive thoughts and this made them flare up and make them shift to inviting demons to take over my body and saying they can do whatever. Im even more worried that it will happen while im asleep so they will make me think im ok and safe then ill learn i did horrible crimes and didnt even know later on. I know this is irrational but my brain wont accept that idk what to do, i dont really believe in this kind of thing but the fear of being wrong is back and if i am then im doomed and that scares me so much. What should i do? I want to logic my way out of this so bad but i feel hopeless