I LOVE music! so much I found a way to make it part of my job (event tech). if I one day go on tour with my favorite band, I‘ve reached all my goals and can die in peace.

buuut I don‘t do well making music with other people (one might say I‘m too rigid) and sadly creativity doesn‘t come my way freely, but I‘m working towards saving the money for a mini recording studio on my room (first step - second hand speakers with lots of character) and I have a collection of both bought and diy percussion instruments. I even have a drumkit, but I live in an apartment and don‘t exactly want my neighbors to hate me, I have a guitar that I unfortunately rarely play, I even have two jaw harps (I love the wooden one so much) and god I love singing. I just wish I was finally on testosterone (trans guy), I can‘t wait for my voice to get low enough to sing the songs I love.

and oh my I love listening to music, especially when getting high. all the magical sounds. like, seriously, how on earth can you make a string under tension sound SO DAMN FASCINATING with some electronic circuits? and voices! aah good voice harmonics, singing techniques or even throat singing is better than sex! I‘m not even gonna start about how satisfying hitting things with sticks can sound. and I really need to keep working on my pistacio shell rattle. but isn‘t it crazy how literally anthing can be an instrument?

you can see, I love music and instruments, but unfortunately I only had one music teacher that I vibed with (my drums teacher), the others all sucked ass. I‘m insecure about my lack of skill when it comes to playing instruments. I have a good feel for it but not enough experience to put melodies, harmonics and instruments together in a way that works (for me).

and then my friend said „it‘s just a matter of time until you start making music“

you guys (and gals and nb pals), hearing this from someone else just filled me with SO MUCH joy and optimism and motivation. and it reminded me that you don‘t need to be a kid prodigy to one day become a musician. it‘s never too late to start (or continue) learning.

hope y‘all have joy coming your way!