Idk if this makes sense, but does anyone else feel like they don't really love people? I like my friends and family well enough, but I'm not really attached to them; there isn't a single person in my life that I would grieve if they suddenly left (not like dying but just leaving). When people leave my life just like "ok, that sucks," and then I move on like nothing happened.

  I don't care about their issues, every time they cry on my shoulder, I feel incredibly annoyed and resentful. I try to help them, but that's mostly because I want them to like me, not out of any genuine concern. I hate it when they get invested in/love me because now they want to spend more time with me, so I have to play a character more often. My personal perfect relationship would be an incredibly casual friendship that isn't intrusive or deep, someone I could abandon for a few weeks and they wouldn't even notice.