You don't know agony until you've been deceived by your own heart in thinking that you are in love and not worthy of it

Then you meet someone special, you then think the absolute world of them, someone who gets you, you tear down walls, share your obstacles you've conquered, and you constantly think about them, but ultimately you share your heart, and they become a part of you.. from when you wake up until the moment you fall asleep.

After leaving your guard up for so long and finally tell yourself that you do love this person.. everything changes...

But then one day.. They are gone, there's someone else, it's too much Through various variables and circumstances aside They don't just leave by themselves.. They take a piece of your soul with them You honestly lose a piece of yourself and are damaged

You constantly think about all your mistakes vs blaming them..

What's worse is you can't bring yourself to love anyone else after, you make mental comparisons, hate that love is all around you from couples to family members whilst you've being accustomed to being snubbed by it, you mask your sadness & pain via anger & pessimism.. you just do "Not" think about anyone else anymore 😔 not even yourself..

How do you find your way back? This still haunts me after 8 years At 33, still living with parents, introverted, having 12 dating apps, poor self esteem.. And not been on a date since.. I feel out of my league to try anymore.. Im just in pain.. 😥