What does this have to do with anything?

So, like many of you I have a sense of feeling persecuted in society. I have this feeling of like, I could do so much more, I could be the most effective...if it were valued more to be literal and forthright. And not just that...I think my pattern of speech, like the rhythm, what words I emphasize...is different than from some people. I'm not like, a monotone robot but sort of along those lines. I could be more expressive, I could have more redundant features in how I talk that display meaning, let alone things like having more body language and facial expression.

You hear the sounds, you translate the sounds into words, and you think "this word means this" so this is what the person is saying. You think about context, you make judgements about what a certain kind of person the other person is, so you can try to see their perspective, so you can get more clues about ok, what is this person trying to communicate, what do THEY think their words mean or are expressing?

People are built different. It's more than just ASD or not ASD, or neurodivergent or not. Or dyslexic or not. There are a lot of different learning disabilities out there, or conditions, or just human variation.

So while I feel persecuted, and put out...while I feel like people are punishing me when all I want is clarity...all I want is to be able to communicate what suits ME best...rather than being slowed down by these conventions in society. Sorry, you can't just be literal and verbose. That isn't valued, it may even be a negative. You have to pick the right words and sentences that conform to a way of communicating that is expected. The way of communicating that is on top of the hierarchy in society.

But then I realize, you know, another group of people who have the same problem are people with dyslexia. While maybe in some situations, what is normal, or expected, suits them better, suits them better than someone like me...

I'm sure there ARE situations where the way I communicate is more socially catered to than the way they best communicate.

Without giving a bunch of examples...I have looked back in my life, and I have realized a few people I interacted with had dyslexia...I have watched more videos of people with very severe dyslexia talk...and I can see now situations where I was being so annoying and so hard to talk to, but they didn't want to tell me "can you talk differently to accommodate me, please?" I didn't have self awareness. Who would want to do that? And I can see that their assets were undervalued, that in their own personal journey, they were trying to adapt to society well enough, while increasing their own unique strengths.

My takeaway from this is that yes, of course, it's good to be more self aware and more informed, to understand other people better, whatever we're talking about--be it learning disabilities, or culture. And also to not completely stereotype people and assume all groups are the same...

I feel like I've gained an important insight about my own (possible, undiagnosed) ASD, and about the human condition in general. Why do I feel like people were treating me this awful? How does it happen? Well, as it turns out, I do have that perspective, don't I, of knowing how it happens. People are frustrated when their way of being--their style, which may actually have certain advantages over the norm, is undervalued or disparaged, when their intelligence is not recognized, and people just see the ways in which they are not keeping up to speed.