Will I ever be able to just have a life? (self.aspergirls) submitted a minute ago by apricotblues Autism plus depression has made my life unliveable ever since 16. I failed/dropped out of high school twice, have lost the 3 jobs I’ve ever had and only lasted two months on university before trying to kill myself and being sent to hospital.

My brain hasn’t been clear in 6 years. I can’t focus or concentrate on anything. I used to be intelligent but it’s worthless now. I went from getting A*s-Bs to getting Es and Us. Even little things like budgeting, food shopping, trying to play a video game that I have to use my brain for, drives me to extreme emotional reactions and extreme stress.

Social situations make me suicidal if I feel in the slightest that I don’t fit in or am unwanted. This social issue ruins every single thing I do to try and improve my life. I basically have sat in my room in my parents house and haven’t gone out or had any friends on and off for the past 6 years. I would always end up quitting/failing/being fired and go back to sitting in my room.

Is there any hope? I can’t bear living this life. The idea of being a social outcast fills me with the same dread I get when thinking about how I’m going to die one day and be forever non existent.