So I am not sure if me sucking at getting a job is affected by my body language, but after applying to 250 jobs, getting 15 interviews, and no offers, it does make me wonder if body language has a part to play in that.

At my current job a program that is suppose to allow for extra seemed to kinda be hidden from my team and I, even after one of my (at least compared to me) successful coworkers asked about it and was turned down. Those that were better at bsing with the boss on other teams seemed to get ahead. Also my boss chewed me out in front of everyone and threatened to coach me over something everyone else does.

With dating, I have been dropping weight slowly and getting some positive feedback. I would beat this dead horse as it makes me frustrated just listening to myself and makes me annoyed at myself, so rather not go I to that and honestly is kinda the lesser of issues.

I get people declining me and I am not asking for everyone to like me, but it seems like the performative merry go around has gotten more intense for everything. Sometimes it feels like you have to be perfect. I get not every part of a person's life will be perfect, but when all of it seems like you need to be a circus animal, it just pisses me off. I get people are human, but so am I and it is frustrating when it feels like people treat us like another species. Rant over.