I was moping the other night about applying to jobs and dating, as I have loss weight (still have some room to improve) and have noticed I have materialized some small successes, but nothing that is tangible if that makes sense. As far as with jobs, I applied to 250 jobs, got 15 interviews, but no one hired me. I did shake my fist at the Universe metaphorically as I took a walk, and not too long after I realized the Universe closed doors so I could step into the things that are a fit for me. I then realized that all the things that could be construed as stupid obsessions were actually signs pointing me in the direction I need to go.

I am not sure if anyone can relate, but there have been certain places my mind keeps turning to as in and of itself the city is a stim to me and my creativity goes through the roof when I am there. Then as I was looking at one of things I am really good at and realized that if I worked my ass off I would not need to rely on the system. Basically in reflecting on this, I realized I need to rechart my course and put energy into things that bring me happiness and puts me ahead instead of focusing on the nos. I don't mean to make light of people's issues, but I do think the Universe is an interconnected Cybernetic system and we should put energy into things that move us forward. In my case I think I need to work toward moving to Bogota and work on being a trader , as that seems to be what is available to me and I should run with it.