Just a vent. Maybe too much exposure over the long weekend with someone new I am dating. Having a busy career, being a mom, and recovering alcoholic. But i am just over my auto mask of happy. And if I say anything about how I really feel inside I feel like I am just a gross ball of negativity. Ive been on high dose cymbalta for a longtime now. I want to get off it I think. I have a hard time reaching an orgasm, and I know vanilla sex would please me if I wasnt on this medication. I will talk to my doctor on Thursday about this, hopefully im in just slight burnout. I am also seeing her to get my testosterone pellets reboosted. Maybe that's my problem with drainage and self disgust. Like I just want to be ok in this world. Im 45. And have felt like an outsider everywhere. Even in my own home. Thanks for reading.