Long story short, someone I cared about (I still do, but rebuilding the trust is hard and long term we shall see, but I am trying), basically said I acted fake because I have been focused on trauma in my life (someone killed themselves where I was living, had the police pull guns on me, someone threatened me and family and made my life hell) and I was not able to fulfill a promise due to this and insinuated that what that person said about me (I am fake) may be true. After that I came undone. Basically the nice person that tries to live by the golden rule and tries to be a good person went out the window and all the hidden and negative parts of me came to the surface where I am today. I would completely decouple from this person (that said this), but there are some things that keep the train going. What worries me more is that I went from introvert and a bit depressed to what feels like a raging asshole/extrovert. I have not fully released the asshole part, but it is lurking below the surface, waiting for the right time to get what I want, some of which is wrong and selfish, but after being selfless and good (I went from nice guy, to setting boundaries and trying to be a good guy, to now feeling like I want to torch anything that so much as looks at me wrong). Have any of you dealt with this?