I think about how people are like oh Elon Musk or Bill Gates had Asperger's, but they are rich. Honestly I don't think these examples are good as both came from wealth and since the 2010s tech at least has been very strong on soft skills, which is codeword to tone it down for the nts trying to cash in on the helicopter money.

But on the opposite end we have finance and biotech, which seems a bit more open than tech in my opinion. Biotech as I think that is the new breakout industry and the financial sector because I work in it and seems with a bit of grit anything is possible. Also it seems like a lot of outsiders ( Nigel Farage and Javier Milei, who does have autism) both work in the financial sector and even if not neurodiverse, were well outside what the establishment liked.

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This got me thinking how my chasing mega success was a way to justify my suffering. In the past I have been very depressed, but after some reading I realized I created my own reality and while I am here I might as use this time to create big ideas and execute them. As I get slightly older, the thoughts that question whether I am delusional (I don't have a rich family,etc). But then something comes up from my gut that kicks me in the ass and says get back to the task at hand. I don't want to be holky, but it is like my shadow knows something I don't. Or it could just be singularity of purpose. But overall I cannot be content with mediocrity and I have to prove people wrong, but beyond that, to make up for a shit life thus far.

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Anyone else kinda feel like this?

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