Lately I have felt as though there has been less to explore or do. Buy a place? Did it. Now since housing is so expensive, I am half tempted to just pay it down. I used to think about expanding into a different job, but now the industry in my area is shrinking. I might just keep doing overtime, save, pay down my student debts and house loan and invest until I can say screw it and quit. I want to explore new subcultures and cultures, but it seems like many foreign cultures are getting more rigid and subcultures are hit or miss (rock is still decent though). I remember reading Cyberia and thinking it was really cool. There is still the Nootropics scene, but cultures seem more online and less in person.

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I was thinking about this after a post on here mentioned about not belonging and someone mentioned about staying inside and I have felt that lately. I recently cut off someone I knew for 8 years and semi cut off one person (they are flakey on the phone), and so I have been not only feel like turning inwards, but I don't feel like expanding. Learning yes, doing cool stuff yes. But in terms of growing? I feel kind of cautious lately. I have been stagnating and instead of buying new things or doing new stuff, I feel like calling it a day and keeping what I have established and enjoying it. I don't have to keep running, I can enjoy the fruits of my labor. I do have one opportunity to maybe move, but if that falls through, then I am just going to stay still as it seems like thing tend to be stagnant elsewhere. In terms of trying to be in the C-suite or whatever, it seems almost meaningless at this point as most new stuff seems like people are just throwing commodities out there to earn as much money with as little effort as possible. Why bother?

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Also, in terms of people, from what I have gathered and at the current epoch we are in, people don't seem to be worth reaching out to except for the people I already have. There might be exceptions with Meetups, but in terms of day to day interaction, it feels forced. The opportunity to move might be an exception, but people seem to be people.

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All this to say that I if the opportunity to move falls through, then I am staying put and will hold down what I have. Anyone else at this point?