Basically what the title asks. I’ve (22F) been in a relationship with my bf (21M) for 3 years and I’m miserable. The main thing stopping me from leaving is that I’ve gained a significant amount of weight while being in this relationship and I feel like no one else is gonna want me. It also affects my social life once we do break up, because we have broken up before and gotten back together. The thing that I’ve noticed throughout these periods is that yes it’s good in theory, go to parties with friends and all that, but even that is an issue because I’ll have nothing to wear because of my weight and I’ll just be really insecure the whole night.

How do I just get out of my head and move on? I know the first thing is to actually be proactive about losing the weight but that isn’t gonna happen overnight so how do I deal with actually leaving while I’m so heavy and having the motivation to still keep losing even after I feel lonely and want to go back.

Tl; DR I feel too fat and worthless to leave my relationship