What the title says. I would like to mention I’m South Asian and it’s very normal for us to be living with parents until later on, but I’m the only sibling left at home now and I actually moved back in 3 years ago. When I moved - I basically changed countries to be closer to them, so I’m currently in my home country: I moved from North America. I was on a work permit/visa, which has now expired. Ever since then I feel like I’ve been stuck here, but I felt comfortable because I was making enough money to sustain a fun lifestyle yet also enjoy the luxury of having a free place to live, food, car etc.

About 7 months ago, I felt burnt out and just done with my career. I’m in marketing. I think I have undiagnosed ADHD as well and I went crashing. I quit because my parents said it’s fine, you can find something else. But 7 months later, I don’t even feel like finding something else. I’m on the last few 100 dollars of my savings (I’m converting it so it’s relatable). But it’s really nothing tbh. I have realized if I join a 9-5 or a marketing job again, I’ll probably be heavily depressed. I can’t even move out because I have no savings. I want to move back out of my home country but I don’t have the luxury of having a PR or even a job offer from anywhere abroad.

I guess what I’m trying to ask is — how do I find my motivation? For 3 years, I worked like a dog. I traveled all by myself, I bought things for myself, spoiled myself. And now I feel empty and like I don’t even like my career. I enjoy cooking. I also enjoy graphic design. I just can’t get over the fact that I have to work for the entirety of my life to sustain myself. And I know, I KNOW, I have to do it for myself, no one else is going to come save me and help me move out. I guess… I just don’t know what first step to take? I feel like I’m drowning and I’m stuck. How do I find my passion? It’s like I’m afraid I’ll put in the effort and it’ll take too long or if I put in the effort towards a new career I’ll end up hating it.