Transitioning has been one of the best decisions I ever made, despite picking a terrible time to do it. However, I really don't feel like I have the tools I need to actually deal with the downsides; I want to know if anyone else has had a similar experience and can help me out a bit.
I started transitioning almost a year ago, right as soon as I moved into my apartment for my first year of college. Going to that school ended up being a pretty miserable experience, and while taking estrogen did help me be more content with my body, it also made me much more reactive to the emotional pain I was feeling. I am 100% the type of trans girl who started crying a LOT on E. In general I just don't feel like I can manage my emotions very well. It's especially bad after visiting one of my partners, since they're all far away from me and I can't just swing by whenever and hang out for a few hours. It's become generally hard for me to focus since I constantly feel the need to daydream and comfort myself. So yeah, while I knew E had an effect on your emotions, I really didn't expect it to hit me anywhere near this hard and I think it's time I actually address it. Any advice for dealing with crying a lot and tempering emotional extremes?
Also since I imagine most responses will mention it, therapy would probably be much more helpful than Reddit on something like this, but at this particular second I don't really have access to it. Most of the trans/poly friendly therapists I've found are booked until at least the end of summer, so while I will keep looking I'm not optimistic I'll be able to get professional help anywhere in the immediate future.