Hi everyone, I'm a 20 year old trans girl and as the title states, I'm too cowardly to transition. I've taken a year off from college because I feel so depressed that I have lost my desire to do most things, but I'm not doing much to fix my situation. This is mainly because I don't know what to do, I feel stuck. I know i need to set up a therapist, but my lack of a drive to do anything has made setting that up difficult. Anyhow I'm not seeking pity, I just want advice. I feel like I'm going in circles constantly. I'll go from being miserable and telling myself that transitioning Is pointless, to being telling myself that I'm going to change, to back to miserable because I'm too much of a coward. I'm afraid that I'm going to be stuck in a permanent rut forever, and I just dont know what to do. Any advice would be appreciated. I'm Just tired of how life Is right now and I dont feel comfortable enough talking to my family about my trans issues. Thank you very much for your time.