So there is a part of me that really wants to start trying to use the name I want, but there are a few things which I think might make it generally not worth it. For one, I’m only out to three of my friends, one of which I only told because he’s my roommate and I figured it would be more trouble for me to pretend I can hide it anymore than to be honest about it. I’m still pre-everything and really don’t pass aside from having nice, fairly long hair. I’m terrified of people finding out because I go to a boarding school, and even though the school is pretty liberal, I might not feel particularly safe if everyone knew and could harass me easily. I can’t imagine myself having even the slightest chance of being able to start transitioning with hormones until summer, and even though I am working myself towards somewhat passing with some voice training and makeup practice, I’m not sure it will get me particularly far. That being said, I really want to know how it feels to hear me called as my preferred name. Would it be a bit much to ask my two friends to try using my name only in private? I don’t want to feel like I’m confusing them too much, especially since one of them is pretty shit with names. Any and all advice would be much appreciated!