Ok so I've been wanting to make this post for some time on various different subs but either i couldn't find a sub or i couldn't find the words. Chances are I will ramble a lot and yeah I don't know. I'm crying as I type this.

So for starters I'm not entirely sure if I am trans or not and I'm hoping someone could help clear that up for me or maybe help steer me in a direction to make that choice.

I am currently 18 years old and I identify as a male publicly. Growing up I've always had a fondness for feminine things and never really gained an interest in a lot of traditionally male interests. I remember sneaking into my cousin's room to dress up her dolls and how excited I would get when I could go to build a bear or buy a new webkinz. Fast forward to about 6th grade. Something just felt off. I wasn't confident at all in myself and my confidence continued to decline year after year. So I turned to writing and eventually roleplaying. Roleplaying as a male was alright I guess but still it didn't feel right. So then i started roleplaying as a female and that's when a new side if me was born. I like to call this side Brooke. She became more than a character she became another identity for me. Her personality is the same as mine. Her interests are the same. But the difference is it just feels right. I absolutely hate having body hair it makes me feel so gross. When I look in the mirror I hate the person I see and often times I feel like I'm living in a strangers body.