A little backstory. My name is Emma 30 (Mtf) I live at home with my brother and Mom. I came out to them in late 2014, my brother was kinda nonchalant about it but my mother was quite inquisitive about it, to the point of making me question if I really was trans.

I went through many therapists and now even live in a new state. I’ve been going to therapy since moving about 2 years ago. I absolutely love my therapist, shes totally amazing. Helped me resolve a lot of things about me that even I didn’t know where bothering me.

Fast forward to this past Friday. I had my bimonthly therapy meeting and was told that when I come in to my next appointment that I would be getting her recommendations to be put on HRT. Needless to say I nearly cried. I at that moment felt so justified for once, felt like I’m finally becoming who I want to be in life.

But with good news comes bad.

My family (mom and brother) doesn’t know at all that I’ve been going to therapy to seek HRT and transitioning. So my dilemma is this. How do I tell them that I will be getting meds and medically transitioning very soon? I’m very afraid that my mom will be as questionable now as she was then. I show no actual signs of wanting to be female at home. But that’s because I don’t think I’ll feel safe.

I have a feeling that I’m going to lose what I though would be my only real allies in my family, and I don’t have the resources to move and live elsewhere. I just need some advice and maybe a way to get me through this inability to tell my mother how I really feel and who I want to be.