Man today's been interesting. So for starters, I got my HRT prescription!!!!!! I thiiiink it's 50 mg Spiro and 2 mg of Estradiol? It's gonna be for 3 months.

So I'm in kind of a weird place where my mom and dad don't want me to socially transition-specifically they don't want me wearing "feminine" clothes and won't let me shave my body hair or get certain haircuts. I think it's because they don't want to see a 'man in a dress' which is incredibly hurtful since I mean i could end up not 'passing'. Oh, and since I can't drive and I'm not allowed to get a job because of my 'anxiety' (even though I know I could handle it) I'm kinda stuck with the rules I have. For some reason they're ok with me starting HRT, though. Or at least on board enough to get me a prescription even if they still want it to go away.

But now, since my 14 year old brother found out I'm starting HRT, he's been having a meltdown pretty much all day. He apparently cried for like 2 hours and until about 8 PM he had been with my mom all day long. I think he, too, was hoping it would go away.

So with both of these things considered, what comes next? I was hoping to start looking into electrolysis or hair removal but I'll be honest, I don't known a lot about it. I do know having dark hair helps and having a lot of it helps and I have both, but I'm not really sure the difference between electrolysis and laser and trying to Google it honestly confused me more. I am working on my voice, although just the pitch so far. Oh, I wanted to know if my dosage was done too. Also, uh what exactly can I do to help my brother? I let him use El instead of Ellie and they/them instead of she/her so that's a start I guess. Sorry. This kinda got rambley but I hope I made sense!