I’ve been debating for a few weeks whether to ask this question or not, because idk if it’s a dysphoria thing for me or just a weird quirk of mine.

For a little context, I’m pre-HRT and haven’t done much to transition really so maybe this feeling would go away after that. I’m also MtF.

For as long as I can remember, I have always had a desire to crawl under my bed sheets or hide under places like bed or couches, sometimes would even put myself between my mattress and box spring. It’s always felt more comfortable than just kinda being normal lol. Even though it felt harder to breathe physically it always helped me emotionally breathe in a way.

For a while I stopped and even kinda forgot about doing it but after my egg first started majorly cracking in 2019 I kinda started doing it again. I would just kinda subconsciously put blankets over myself but proceed with what I usually do. Just kinda hide myself from everyone. A bit ago family called me out how I would do that and commented on it being similar to my behavior as a kid. This was after I accepted myself as being trans and it got me thinking if this was a sign of dysphoria I had as a kid. I tried looking it up to see if anyone else mention something like this but had no result, I didn’t really know what to search though.

So, anyone else do anything similar or is this a weird quirk of my own? Either way I should probably mention it to a therapist whenever I eventually see one.