I don’t mean to invalidate ANYONE and I’m sorry if I do with the things I say, I’m very new to actually interacting with this community as I’ve only somewhat recently ACTUALLY accepted that this is what I want, instead of internalizing and hating myself for it.

Simple as that, I want to be a woman, and I don’t mean to denigrate the fact that not passing is valid and okay, but for me it is important.

I want the man to die and be reborn a woman, I know it isn’t glamorous as that but I look in the mirror and I hate my face, how mow masculine I look and I can’t imagine it ever being feminine and if I take hrt then what’s the point if I can’t ever look like the woman I desperately have wanted to be.

Part of me feels it’s better to just be miserable and be content with the fact I was born a male, rather than risk taking hormones and just have nothing change at all and go through all those changes for nothing.

And I don’t mean to invalidate anyone else m just… very confused and conflicted and honestly if anyone had advice if they’ve felt these same things I’d appreciate anything to help with this.