If Im loving myself for feeling more feminine when I look in the mirror or if someone appreciates the feminine energy that Im apparently giving and hating myself for the thick hair, stubble on my face, not seeing that smooth shine on my skin that give off that feminine energy that it make me feel, is this just a coincidence that Im just liking and disliking parts of myself or is this an exchange of gender related feelings because Im feeling they’re making me feel more or less feminine…?

Am I liking/disliking parts of myself based upon gender qualities (feeling feminine or masculine) or can it just seem like Im just liking/disliking parts of myself? Im trying how to phrase the question but Im not quite sure myself.