So about a week ago I’ve kinda figured out that I’m trans, but as of right now I’m still pre anything. I haven’t even figured out a new name or different pronouns from he/him yet, as I want to at the very least start transitioning, because I don’t really want to tell people that I’m trans without having done anything and with no idea when I even will start at all LMAO

Which brings me to my next point, the transitioning process. I have almost no clue at all what’s possible, all I know is that F1NNSTER uses some sort of cream on his arms which made his body develop breast tissue. I would like the same thing, but do I need to see a doctor for that first? And is it simply just that one thing, or would I need multiple different creams/meds? Besides all of that, I still live at home and don’t even have a license yet (although that will be done within a couple of months if all goes well), and I also don’t want to bring up my identity to my family just yet, so anyone driving me around is off the table for now. They’re very accepting people, I know that for a fact, but it’s just me who dislikes being “perceived” in a way? For example, I don’t tell her much about myself, I don’t tell her about my (online) friendships, I don’t tell her about my private life, much less if I had a partner. I very much keep to myself if it’s my family, but with my friends I’m way more open. I don’t know why that is. I guess I just don’t want my mom for example to make anything a bigger deal than it is, even if her reaction were to be positive. I don’t mind her knowing things about me, I’d just prefer if she could just pretend that nothing changed at all. If for example I got a girlfriend, I wouldn’t be able to tell her that, I’d rather she would just find that out herself somehow and not mention it at all and everyone just carries on with their day. And this is how I feel about transitioning as well, I would like to start going on HRT and for no one to comment on it basically LMAO I know that’s super unrealistic but I’m wondering if anyone relates, so that I could hopefully understand why I’m like that, so I can figure out how to deal with that I guess! Thank you very much in advance if any of you has any sort of insight for me :)