So, to start off, I'm a 22yo male, and I've started wondering not too long ago about whether or not I might be trans, it began with me asking a trans person what it takes to be trans, and they said that as soon as I feel like I'd like being the opposite sex, that's already enough. And the entire time I thought that it takes more than that to be trans, that it takes being unhappy with your body, maybe even to the point of being dysphoric. So that person saying how it doesn't take much at all just made me think a lot about it, I think about it daily now and I have to admit, I do feel a little bit of excitement picturing myself having feminine body parts, for example.

Now, the reason I didn't question my gender identity sooner, is, I'm guessing, because I didn't have many people try to fit me into some gendernormative boxes. My mom has always been the type to let people do what they wanted to with themselves, and she didn't try to make me "more manly", ever. She always let me enjoy what I enjoyed, with no regards to what I should or shouldn't be into depending on the societal perception around gender roles (except for that one time when I saw my sister getting both her ears pierced when we were very young, and I got jealous and wanted the same, but my mom said how I should have just one ear pierced instead because having both ears pierced is for women, but I don't think that's a good counterargument as I think she just didn't want people to ridicule me for that).

As a guy, I have always been quite different from pretty much all guys, I was never into things you'd consider "boyish" like cars, football (soccer for the americans), being jacked, or stuff like that. My mannerism has always been different also, I'm a very soft person, I have always been soft towards other people, and I have been bullied in middle school by being labeled as gay simply for having long hair. And the way I talk to my friends is also very unlike how I think guys usually talk, for example I would use "slay", "pop off", "girlboss" and even ":3" unironically LMFAO

While I'm not the type to be into "girly stuff" like makeup, plushies, or the colour pink for example (at least not yet, it might change, except for the plushies though), I believe my identity could still be considered closer to being a girl than being a boy on a spectrum, if you get what I mean. I even took an online test twice in the span of a couple of years and the results haven't changed very much at all; it was a test for gender roles based on personality, from the page idrlabs.com, and it said that I was 36% masculine (which is apparently average) and 78% feminine (which was classed as high). I first took that test out of pure curiosity a few years ago and was pleased with the result because I didn't consider myself to be masculine at all at the time, then took it again not too long ago, again out of curiosity if anything changed, and it stayed mostly the same. And when I started questioning my identity, I have had thoughts about my past thoughts and feelings, and things kind of clicked for me, like for example I've been fantasising for years about being physically feminised (mostly clothes) and the entire time I thought it was nothing more than a kink thing. So maybe there is actually more to it than I've thought?

Another thought I've had is how F1NNSTER pretended to be a girl as a joke for many years, only for them to realise they might actually be trans after all very recently. I might be in a similar situation; it's not that I am straight up uncomfortable with my current body, at best I don't mind it that much, I just feel like I might be at the very least a tiny bit happier with myself if I had a female body instead.

So, what do you think? Is it clear that I'm trans? Or not really? I came here to ask you guys because I guess I don't want to transition for the wrong reasons, if there are wrong reasons in the first place.

Thank you for taking the time to read this wall of text, it's so much longer than I ever thought it'd be teehee