I posted this in r/FTM and was going to cross post here but I couldn’t because I added a poll 💀 I need some advice, here is the og post:

Had the most Dysphoric Dream and it’s making me think

TW - Dysphoria and Family Issues

Hi everyone, I’m after some advice after a dream I had really changed my perspective on my family.

For some context: my family is not supportive. I’ve been out for over 3 years and I’m 3 months on T, starting to get some facial hair and voice is changing yet my family still deadname me and misgenders me. My mum used to be very vocal about her lack of support and our relationship is strained because of that. When I started T her exact words were “I’ll still love you but you know I don’t support it”. I live with my mum because financially it’s really good (I’m 18). If I moved out I would not be able to save I would just have expenses.

Now onto the dream.

It was really weird but essentially my mum finally refereed to her kids as her boys (I have one younger brother). I woke up and I felt so light and happy and that all came crushing down when I was deadnamed. In that moment I realised that the dream wasn’t real- it didn’t happen and it feels like it will never happen.

I’m so sick of going through really good weeks where I’m like “I can deal with this and I can save” to stuff like this that happens and I go like why don’t I just move out. I’m scared to move out. I’m starting a new job today with hopefully more pay but it all is just too much and I don’t know what to do.

Do I start committing to moving out? Idk what’s going to best for me? Any advice would be great.