TL;DR I am a fairly masc presenting transwoman & I'm worried if that means I shouldn't get gender reassignment surgery.

Hello my LGBT siblings and allies, here's my current situation; I am a transwoman, over 18, have known I am woman since age 6, have been living semi-out since 2019, & have been on HRT since 2021. By semi-out I mean I openly use She/Her pronouns & dress fem or use makeup when I can or just want to feel good about myself & I openly tell anyone that asks that I am a transwoman, but I don't go out of my way to correct people on things like pronouns & I don't try to educate or change the minds of ignorant people or justify my or any transperson's existence, I usually just ignore things like that unless I feel especially passionate or if it's with someone I actually care about. I am officially diagnosed with gender dysphoria and I am seeing mental health professionals to help deal with my transition as well as things like generalized & social anxiety. It's also important to note that I have alot of dysphoria surrounding surrounding the genitalia I was born with. My main concern for this post has to do with my own internal bias. You see, even after over 2.5 years on HRT I have experienced very little changes or feminization effects as far as my overall physical body and how I look in the face. My main changes have been weight gains and some minor breast development. I'm also not great at presenting fem because I have little fashion sense or skill with makeup, I'm big & tall, & I cannot afford alot of new clothes or makeup at the moment. Overall I feel like I'm still pretty masculine looking & that & lack of support has been making me feel less valid as a transwoman. Despite all this I am seeking gender reassignment surgery & I have a consultation coming up in abput a month with my chosen surgeon. My problem is that because of my personal bias (that i dont hold against anyone else, only myself), I feel like I don't necessarily 'deserve' (for lack of a better word) to get the surgery done at this point because I'm not presenting more fem more often & I'm worried any potential dating prospects might just see me as a man with a strange fetish strong enough to mutilate my genitals. How do I get myself out of this way of thinking? Am I rushing things by being fairly masc but still wanting a vagina?